I was up early this morning as usual. I am and always have been an early riser.
A movie came on this morning. The Open Road (2009) starring Justin Timberlake, and Jeff Bridges. The film is about a young minor league baseball player who has to retrieve his untrustworthy, unreliable father for his ailing mother, Mary Steenburgen (it’s a feel good film, she survives in the end). I suggest checking it out on Netflix. It is available for instant streaming.
The movie reminded me of myself, and the fact that I am in my way. Justin Timberlake’s character is in his way the entire time. In the film, his baseball career is failing, and he is seriously considering pursuing his writing career. His problem however, is himself.
The movie made me realize something. Everything, that I have failed at or quit had a lot to do with me being in my way. Now I do realize that some of the things I failed at, failed because they weren’t things I was meant to do. i.e Biology, Dentistry, other things. Some things though, I never should have quit, like Tae Kwon Do.
There was a quote in the film that went something like this: “life is about screwing up, and having the courage get back up after you do”
I think like many people, we have all messed something up in one way or another. Believe me, I have done it many times.
I believe that through everything I have written so far, the underlying problem hasn’t been quitting, or failing, or deciding. The problem has been me. I am working hard to get out of my way. I just need help doing it. I am sure that I have that help though.
There is a Japanese proverb that I love. It has spoken to me since I found it a year ago. “Fall down seven times, stand up eight.” It also reminds me of a song I love. I think it is very inspirational. Listen here.
If there is something that I have always been good at, its been dusting myself off and getting back up after failing. Maybe that has something to do with what I am supposed to do. I am obscenely persistent. I may fail, but I get back up and try something again.
This is telling me something, but what?
Far From Idle